I'd Rather Be With You...

My relationship ended yesterday. My emotions are unstable and i can't help but wish there was something that I could have done better to persevere it. I took off the necklace she got me in Egypt and it broke my heart. I think; i finally took it as an official sign that it was over and it made my body ache all over.



I'm not interested in having a relationship with anyone else right now. I'm horrible at them and this one was random and so amazing... and I screwed it up, like normal. I'm hoping that maybe, just maybe, if I just leave it alone maybe when she gets back from Asia we can start something simple and try again fresh. Something slower paced. I don't know if i'm hoping for too much or if it's a lost cause. I just don't know... but what I do know is enough to try.

I laid awake all night long reminiscing of the little things, simple things, that made me fall for her... and it's not about spending every waking moment together or making plans and whatnot. It's about finding that person that gets you on a level that no one else does. It's about connecting.

It's also about supporting that person in what ever they want to do, and if that means no more us. Than i'm going to be supportive with her decision. I have to.