Could i be pushing her away?

It seems i never realize when enough is enough. I never know when a person wants more attention or less attention. When do you know?

Okay, so I write... a lot. Mostly about random things, i never seem to have direction in any of my letters, nor blogs for that matter. Today though, i really want to talk about relationships, and when you can tell that you're smothering your partner or they're pushing you away. Key signs? Share your key signs?

Despite all the times she/he professes their passionate love for you, do you have the sense to guard your heart in case there is possible means of harm? Or do you just brush it off, file it as a mishap and move on without a care in the world. Is it wrong to safe guard your heart?

I almost feel like i close myself off as soon as the relationship reaches having potential. Afraid of commitment? I don't even think that it's that, really. I think being raised by a single mother, a very independent single mother, and having your father walk out on you... not to mention step fathers leave as well. You just get detached on the need to have someone, at least i do. I think once something starts getting good, i push it away, them away; like it's too good to be true, that it can't happen to me. Am i the only one who does that?

I really want to make my current relationship work, how do i get out of this vicious cycle? Should i talk to her and tell her about my past history of detachment... do you think it will push her away? I just don't want to fuck up this time.