Four Days!

My trucks loaded down, completely packed from top to bottom. Even lagged with the burden of a tow trailer. I'm set, i'm ready to go. Ashley and I are excited and it's really happening. We're MOVING! The count down has begun. dunt dun dun...

Other highlights include:

I have no bed now... i also have no clothes... my cars already loaded and i still have four days to go. I think i got a bit ahead of myself this time, thoughts?

PDX

It's that time again; the time where i can't sit still i go crazy and need to be doing something with my life. Believeing that nothing i ever do is an acomplishment, only a means to and end.

While laying in my bed a couple weeks ago i was debating taking the gigantic leap and finally moving to Portland; which was always the plan in my mind when i moved up from California, even before i started dating Steph. Slowly and surely though, life took it's evil role of making my personal life HELL. Really that's a different topic anyhow.

On the level now, I was laying there... thinking, planning (which isn't smart for me to begin, i get too carried away), and then BAM! I just decided what the hell i have nothing to lose, i'm going to do it. Everything i own is practically in boxes in a storage shed anyhow, what am i waiting for? To become financially stable? It's just not going to happen, i need to push forward, i'm settling. What's the worse thing that could happen... i lose my ass and end up homeless, hell i can live with that, it's almost summer, nothing wrong with camping out. Actually, probably the absolute worse thing that could happen is: my car gets stolen or broken in to. The one thing i actually own and care about. But it's a car, that's going to happen some day, maybe. Who knows, who cares... IT'S A CAR!

...back to planning...

So, i was laying there... planning, making it happen. And suddenly everything clicked, my plans fell into place; I got a roommate, an apartment, a little cash saved (wont last long but hey, nothing ever does), and everything just seemed to fit, just slide into place. It was amazing really. I quit stressing and it's truly working. I have an amazing roommate, i really like the apartment and the area, i have no steady income but who does in this society?! I know that it will work because... well, i'll make it work.

It's a mind set; if you want it... then go get it. It's never going to happen if you just sit around and dream about it. At least that's what i tell myself. It's probably just a bunch of humbo jumbo crap but oh well, that's life; you win some, you lose some. It's the journey, right?! <- (More crap).

For some strange reason, after all the rain of the past two months; it has broken out and became sunny. *confused* I'm not sure if it is a sign of further happiness or the actual fact that summer is on it's way and then I'll be wishing for rain. Truly hard to say.

News of the past few months:

Nothing really exciting to say besides i've been hanging out with certain people, and that little spark has been reignited. Which i'm hoping is a good thing. Or she could be saying all these sweet things i want to hear just in fear of losing me for good. Again, hard to say. Though i don't really care either way because at the moment i am happy the way things are. Extremely happy with the way things are... :)

I'm am PADI open water scuba certified. And actually this weekend i'm heading up to Washington to be PADI advanced scuba certified. The course is wonderful and i'm really enjoying myself in it. Next adventure will be to master something like rock climbing, kayaking, white water rafting, or maybe martial arts. Lately, the physical classes have been better for me to get my mind off things and keep in shape.